It is

I am in danger all day long
8 seconds away from getting my ass beat down
My hair pulled out
My ears shredded with all that
bleating and bloating
Never before have I realized
what an asshole I can be
And it's only when I'm feeling free
can't go back
can't give in
might flinch  run away
come back
make my way
And

the fear is gone
I will see through 
to the next dawn 
Not afraid anymore to wait
I know my life
whatever they say
Is in the fisted grip of fate
today tomorrow next life 
Not ever gonna know 
I just pray She won't let go
And 

For the days gone by 
I will step out from behind the lie 
I will keep the memory of us lit 
at the end of my cigarette
Believe you are best  
without a witness
draw your face 
when I'm faithless 
put your name 
on the guest list
And

I'm sorry I don't  say thank you the right  way  
because
This isn't ever going to end

It's the truth 
And
it isn't what you think 

Egghead

My heart is beating
keeping a pace with the engine
could be the caffeine
the bed of no sleep
but something is lurking behind the door

I can't stop gripping my pen
taking a picture with every blink
anything to stop the coming
but I can't leave well enough alone

there are no tears before death
nothing matches
no room in this bitter hollow for regret
nothing fits
just a rushing fear that can't quite grasp
it's about to hit
as the ground falls up to meet

Heart of a lamb

Freckles across her friendly nose
Eyes bright with a righteous
Joy from her place above ?
Her violence crushes our early morning commute into  the pain of waking 
We are none us  awake 

We chatted while she was demanding we all do something or other
I said 
Jesus freaks me out. I never asked him to take responsibility  for me
It is seriously passive aggressive

He's a bit of  an overachiever
I told him to take in the sights experience the body, travel - it changes everything, you know

I do.  I like how big it all is and I like being small inside it
Why won't she be quiet.. she has no
Mercy in her

She's scared lamb, try not to mind 
think of our chess game 
It would be nice if you played

Yes but I am not okay with losing every game 

It's just motion, nobody wins

but I am not okay.

I know.